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Bipolar disorder,anyone??
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well dont let anyone bring u down and keep your dam,head up dont anyone cares about how u look and is it any of her dam concerns so what your bulimic,and how dose this faghag whore looks keep your head up and next time you see tha whore just say get on my levelhoe sincerely your pinpal jacole []
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2005-07-20 21:00:57 |
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im all lazy and stuff
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hello :) haven't been here for ages. seems as though you haven't either. sleepless x [sleepless dreams]
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2003-03-12 12:59:30 |
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lol! congratulations :) [sleepless dreams]
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2002-09-03 08:39:08 |
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erm... STUFF!
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O by the way , please excuse my appauling spelling somtimes i just cant b arsed , u know how it is [Toxic girl]
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2002-07-23 17:53:22 |
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its been a while :-o
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Well...I would have to say, strictly from my own experience, that you either don't like James as much as you think you do, or you like him so much you hook up with other people just because you miss him so much. Either way, if you really like him all that, you otta stick with him. And did you ever consider TELLING him how into him you are? It might make him change his plans for ya...--AL [alaskasomeday]
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2002-07-23 10:59:21 |
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.. realising a horrible truth
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Thanks for your advice about the whole cookie thing. Fortunately I don't have to worry about them going straight to my hips because I don't like cookies. I just like to bake em. I normally bring em into work and stuff...hehe. [jello]
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2002-02-22 19:06:16 |
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.. realising a horrible truth
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hey hey!!! well good luck wit everything!! [tOo cOnfUseD]
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2001-11-16 09:54:51 |
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.. realising a horrible truth
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Hi! I just wanted you to know that even thoughI have not been to this site in about 2 months, I was reading the comment you left in my journal and that was one of the most kindest things a near stranger has ever said to me. I feel like there are things I should share with you now. In high school, I was in a very very bad situation. My mother is "socially pyschotic", she let my brother and boyfriend beat me up every other day, she knew I was bulemic, and honestly did not care, she let a guy rape me, for heaven's sake!! So, I grew up with a pretty bad self image. Well, here is what I have to say. DON'T LET YOURSELF BE TAKEN IN BY EVERYBODY ELSE!!! You have got to stand up and say "PFFFTTT"!!! I know that Smashing Pumpkins helps, man, their lyrics are so beautiful...but "mellon collie" (the song)makes me so sad, even though it is wonderful. So don't listen to it too much! You helped me and I help you. Come see me sometime! Thanks! [sanrio_junkie]
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2001-11-12 19:02:29 |
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.. realising a horrible truth
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its good that you are tying to make a life for yourself, if you put your mind to it, you can do it. ok cya [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-11-12 12:26:15 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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hey, yeah, being syuck inside while peers are out partying and all that shit really does suck, i know how you feel. all last winter i would spend my weekends with my ass parked on the couch watching tv all weekend. in the spring, i kinda started to make a life for myself, although it isn't much of one. even still, i'm still a loser living a loosers lifestyle. its good that you can talk to jon about anything. its good to have soemone like that. [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-11-04 23:27:03 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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Kids suck... I get abused too, because I don't think like they think, and they don't like it... But I have friends to fall back on that love me no matter what... And I'm sure people love you too. You're a cool chickie, I'd dig you for sure. [BiGirl]
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2001-11-03 04:37:08 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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sorry yer day wasnt too good, but that john character seems pretty cool, you are lucky to be friends with him :) so yea i hope things are well and stuff. have fun. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-11-01 22:03:12 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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squee ... definatly squee! how about you? ? [The Ketchup Mess]
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2001-11-01 21:47:13 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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Your not weird at all toxic. I agree almost 100 percent it’s the parents fault. But what can you do. I don’t know of a place where you can trade them in for another set of parents. That is sad that John went through that too. So many arse hole people about that I am sure enjoy persecuting some one else because in their eyes its some kind of threat. As if what clothing you wear is a threat. I could rant about twats like that all day but I wont. I just hope they die very slow and painful deaths or get tormented for some reason too. See what I mean about people are ignorant and nasty. But at least its cool you have met this person and get a along real well. There are some nice people out there. I hope you meet up with more. Maybe find some true friends that don’t isolate you. Yeah and smashing pumpkins rule. Cya and you are already beautiful ;) [SocialRecluse]
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2001-11-01 21:36:57 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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I agreed with your comments in Shannon7's journal regarding MDD anorexic wannabes or hopefuls. I'm neither of those things, nor a wannabe...I think I'm a health food nut like your parents! Anja. [Anja]
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2001-11-01 14:39:03 |
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all s***ty and stuff
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Check my diary, it has more tips. I'm thinking of turning it into a kind of ana Mag or something. [Shannon7]
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2001-11-01 12:51:10 |
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OhDearOhDearOhDear
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hey, alrigth idunno what to say aout this drinkin stuff.. lol im kinda innocent .. seriously i am. lol makes me look like a dork. so anyways it dont matter if u are havin fun. i think this week is parents et up our kids asses and yel the hellout of them week. b.c my parents esp my mom has been really crewl and nasty to me.. ugh. well i hope u partied last night! it was halloween, u know! =) have fun no matter what and thanks again So MUCh for ur sweet comments! [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-11-01 11:32:03 |
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OhDearOhDearOhDear
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Thanx for da comment! B sure to visit again!!! [Shannon7]
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2001-10-31 15:27:36 |
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OhDearOhDearOhDear
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do you like this guy? and if you do, i hope you guys get to go out. its cool gettign drunk, sounds like you had a good time. i am glad for you. have a happy halloween! [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-31 15:08:06 |
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WantSomthinMerryAndLightHearted? TurnAwayMySon!!!
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yea you should try to stop the pretty unhealthy ways of losing weight, just go on a diet and exercise, and you dont hafta be only 100 pounds. just dont hurt yerself, cuz thats bad. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-29 16:30:20 |
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WantSomthinMerryAndLightHearted? TurnAwayMySon!!!
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Your comment was wonderful. I never really looked at it in that way, it seemed real to me so I guess that makes it real. Trust me I will nag a lot I am not beat yet. Your not the only one whose fed up. What you have done sounds very similar to the very little I have done. Aint we a pair? ~~~ Pain in the stomach, you should really stop purging just starve your self instead at least its safer. Has less long term damaging effects. I worry about you my friend, your gonna crash and burn soon if you don’t ease up on how you view your self. From what I read here personality wise you got it down. So in my eyes you’re a beautiful person and I don’t even know what you look like. But hell that don’t even matter. Cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-29 05:46:54 |
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WantSomthinMerryAndLightHearted? TurnAwayMySon!!!
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hey, you will do damge to yourself by doing this, what you could do is, go COMPLETLY off junk food, and then ride your bike 5 miles a day. b/c you will lose fat about 10 times faster that way, b/c when you don't eat, it takes alot longer to lose the fat. and when you eat veggies and stuff, you don't hurt your body, and you do alot better for yourself. thats the best way to do it. [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-28 20:40:58 |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttt
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=) the things people do to get some nookie! =) that is hillarious! [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-10-28 14:20:08 |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttt
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haha thats funny as hell. all for some porn, ohh man some people are odd.. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-27 09:31:08 |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttt
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your friend blew2 guys, thats funny, i literally started to luahg, that was funny as hell! [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-25 22:06:30 |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttt
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yes it is [Toxic girl]
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2001-10-25 08:00:55 |
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttt
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LoL, $h! funny. seriously tho...is it true? LoL! *HuGz* A_W* [Ana_Within]
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2001-10-25 07:50:19 |
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YAY
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Sounds like you had a good but tiring day of skating. Just wondering if you have tried instead of purging or starving your self to count calories and all that lot? I am worried now that with the voluntary work you do as well as working for a newsagent. You will be on your feet a lot and if you don’t eat enough to keep you going you will get real ill. So at least eat cereal or something like that it will be just enough to keep you going and you wont gain weight from it. yeah I am nagging I know but I do sort of worry about you collapsing or something. (I value your comments you know would not want to lose you: ) I am glad that the people you work with are nice and I hope this leads on to bigger and better or things. Or just a new wardrobe. LOL cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-24 16:38:19 |
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YAY
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hey, congratuslations on getting the job. and camp guys are a good thing right? [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-24 15:40:39 |
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YAY
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hey thats awesome you got a job. i should get one of those soon... [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-24 15:23:57 |
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YAY
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:) good entry, love your diary title. :) [mariahrose]
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2001-10-24 12:46:09 |
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YAY
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ok i meant to say that i did NOT look like the bride of dracula today [Toxic girl]
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2001-10-24 12:40:45 |
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I am still just a rat in a caaaaagggge...
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sounds like you had a great day.. we deserve them once in awhile! sometimes i feel inadequet.. sometimes when i am around my friends. or even if a guy likes me. i feel that way... i think its normal to feel that way nce in awhile. [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-10-22 22:27:12 |
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I am still just a rat in a caaaaagggge...
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sounds like you had a fun day, days like that are fun [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-22 20:43:23 |
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I am still just a rat in a caaaaagggge...
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sounds like a fun day, yupyup. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-22 16:24:08 |
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yeah i didnt go, im at home, im not stoned....
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Being five stone sucks but hey at least I now know some one will find my sickly skeletal appearance attractive. Lmao. There is nothing wrong with being a freak its better than being a norm.~~~ Poor thing your not stoned. Looks like you fulfilled one of your other urges though, shop till you drop. ;o) I have no clue about the distinction between gothic punk and grunge. But I do know I was surrounded by all three types when I was studying art. Really nice girl with black hair white face, she got a rough time as well unfortunately and quite the course. Just proves people are fucking pathetic at times. ~~~ yeah and good luck on your job hunt. cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-21 20:54:41 |
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yeah i didnt go, im at home, im not stoned....
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people around here think i am just .. weird. i am not a prep i am not a punk i am not goth or whatebver i am just crazy. i wear pastels and pajahma shirts out and i have my own sense of style. i gues su coudl say people thnk i am a teeny bopper. i hate classifications tho. Why cant we just Be HUMAN! good luck!=) [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-10-21 19:13:07 |
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yeah i didnt go, im at home, im not stoned....
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Physacally hurting herself. (bad spelling to lazy to fix) I keep seeing these small cuts on her upper arms and I know she is doing it to herself.. asnd I had her tell me that she was doing it.. I am here to help her and I care a lot about her but she is still upset.. I don't know what to do. [The Ketchup Mess]
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2001-10-21 16:47:19 |
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yeah i didnt go, im at home, im not stoned....
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hey people at my school think i'm one of the "goth" people. yeah they are ignorant shits. it sux to not get stoned man, belive me i know the felling all to fucking well!!!! [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-20 00:14:57 |
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yeah i didnt go, im at home, im not stoned....
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we talked about Chef boyardee and his comic and cartoon career and basically i just said how he is like god... basicly BUT IT WAS SO COOL! [The Ketchup Mess]
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2001-10-19 22:35:44 |
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This title sucks,as does my last entry!
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I did not have a smoke in the end wont be out my system in time. I loved new model army but can’t find the lyrics any where. Which is slightly annoying. Tool was pretty good too. Have 98 different songs downloaded now. Got to love audio galaxy.~~~ I like reading your bollocks ;) That’s harsh you got shouted at like that. It hurts a lot worse to be moaned at by your parents than it does stupid twats in school. Remember your not worthless in the slightest, see if you were not around who would I find out about real class music from. It takes an awful lot of courage to dress like a goth or whatever it is you like to be called?(brainless in that kind of thing) and purposely stand out. You have more strength than you think.~~ I don’t think its right or wrong being like that as you sort of our trying to be different and coming across some one the same as you sort of messes that idea up. well cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-18 21:21:57 |
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This title sucks,as does my last entry!
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i actually like it when people "copy" my music intrests, b/c its like i got them into something. theres a real difference between people having the same intrests, and poeple going out and buying a cd just because they heard that you bought it. i know that that can get annoying. but anyway, can you just tell your parents that you are going outside with your friends? if that works, go to your friends flat, and then get stoned as fuck. but if you are stoned, make sure you don't go back home, even if you are late for your curfew. it would be better to have a nite of great fun, and stay out late and get in trouble for it for just missing your cerfew, then to have a nite of great fun but end up going home stoned. i dunno thats just the way that i think of it. and don't mind the stupid people who make fun of the way you are, b/c if your happy than it doesn't matter. [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-17 19:12:06 |
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This title sucks,as does my last entry!
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oh man, i hate it when people have the same interests as me! it really pisses me off. i feel like they are copying me or something...about going to yer friends house for the night, just say you are going over someones house that your parents aprove of, and if they call or something get that person to make an excuse as to why you cant answer the phone and cover for you, it always works for me. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-17 18:43:20 |
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.......an advertisement
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I hope you are alright toxic you have not written in a while. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-15 21:52:06 |
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.......an advertisement
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Thanks again for the music I will get round to downloading some of them soon. Lord of the rings rules as far as the book goes but I bet they crap the movie up. I really am so glad for your comments toxic I also wish that things were easier for you as well. Thanks for every thing. Cya : o) [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-12 19:50:20 |
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OoOoOOOOooo
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I am not surprised you feel bad. LOL Your hair color should not really matter in getting a job. I am sure you look pretty great with black hair. It sort of also depends what job your after. Some will be picky about appearance. Parents are distrustful by nature I think. Your not even close to stupid neither Toxic so never think you are. Instead think your parents are stupid for not recognising the decent work you have done. Yeah blame the parents. Oh yeah and thanks for the smashing pumpkins advice. Know of any other bands like that? [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-09 21:24:10 |
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OoOoOOOOooo
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thats mean of your mom to think your dumb. i still think your smart, and yes ppl will hire you if your hair is black. its your hair, you have it whatever color you want [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-09 15:59:18 |
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OoOoOOOOooo
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god my mom is the same way with money, if i even ask her for lunch money she gets all pissed off, its so annoying, i hate parents sometimes. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-09 14:11:41 |
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well hello there....
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:-) Yay!! It sounds like you had a lot of fun tonight!!! xoxo [BiGirl]
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2001-10-09 04:26:21 |
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well hello there....
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I have not been saying nout to you in anonymous. From the looks of this entry it does seem like you are well and truly out of it. Well i hope you had fun any way. cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-08 20:08:16 |
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................. Fed up........................
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don't hurt yourself and aFROS RULE!!!! [KurtCobainLives]
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2001-10-08 16:34:12 |
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................. Fed up........................
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What does "7st" mean? [BiGirl]
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2001-10-08 04:05:37 |
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................. Fed up........................
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try not to get too out of hand with the weight loss thing, just yea be safe and stuff. [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-07 21:29:45 |
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................. Fed up........................
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hey thanx for commenting again, but please, do be careful. [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-07 20:12:26 |
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Wooooh, 8st 1lb!!!
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hey i know what you are saying b/c that was me about 2 years ago. controlling junk food intake is a good thing (if i didn't say that i'd be a hypocrite, becuase every time i eat some junk food it feels like a let down) but,. make sure your carefull, becuase controlling food intake can indirectly lead to anorexia, and that is not good. i used to really controll food intake, b/c i used to be a junk food junkie, and then i got all upset b/c i thought i was fat, and at the same time i felt as if i was being ditched by all my friends, and so i started controlling foood intake. at first it was like no soda or junk, but then it was like, a few vegatables a day. i lost weight, energy, and got pale, and my parents got me some horse pill looking vitamins, but that was also b/c i became a vegetarian (they thought all this happend b/c of me being a vegetarian), but anyway, it kinda got stopped dead in its tracks w/ me, but had i continued, there is no doubt that i'd be anorexic. so anyway, enough of my senseless babbling, but just be carefull, please don't hurt yourself [LadyStardustFromMars]
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2001-10-06 23:53:00 |
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Wooooh, 8st 1lb!!!
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wow, i think you went into my brain and typed the words i was thinking, no one understnads why lately i dont wanna eat anything, its not cuz i think im fat, but it feels so good saying no..im not gonna eat that because thats what i wanna do..i dunno if thats what you think but yea im gonna stop babbling now cuz i dont make sense.... [i_want_an_extra_arm]
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2001-10-06 20:47:55 |
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....a CAKE!!!!!
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geez u are makin me feel bad for that alpha bits marshmallow cereal i ate today! huney just remember to keep urself healthy okies? and be happy.. thanks see ya [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-10-06 15:08:17 |
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....a CAKE!!!!!
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May as well talk to a brick wall but I guess you have got to do what you got to do. Thanks for your comment. Ok I have another question have you tried like a diet or did it not work fast enough? If your gonna run about on nothing maybe you could drink sugar water. Keep your energy up more and I don’t think it would effect weight. Your gonna hit burn out soon pass out in class and then the reasons would come obvious so you know I am guessing the last thing you want is to end up in a respite program. Ok yeah I sound like a nagging mother but my cousin used to do similar things. Then again her reasons were she wanted to die but still. Any way good luck on your goal I hope you reach it soon. cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-06 12:30:24 |
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....a CAKE!!!!!
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Liverpool? were not that far at all...I liv in Warrington. :) *A_W* [Ana_Within]
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2001-10-06 05:40:15 |
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....feeling OK
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Hey I liv in Cheshire, how about u? and how old are u? I'll comment properly soon I'm just gonna catch up with ya latest entrys. :) *HuGz* *A_W* [Ana_Within]
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2001-10-04 09:18:45 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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what i would give for the strength to not eat. you're lucky. xoxo [BiGirl]
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2001-10-04 03:00:51 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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well listen, i dont know what you exactly look like but your poems are beautiful ! they really are! you have a good talent, and i hope i can write that good.. i know i cant! there are alot of people in this website that have eatind disorders i ahve noticed.. but its godo they write them down.. i dunno if u have one or not.. its none of my buisness.. but whatever is goin on good luck and keep up your writing! [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-10-03 22:17:10 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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hey...where are u from? let me know okay? ~Good luck with everything~ *A_W* [Ana_Within]
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2001-10-03 13:36:16 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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I hope your doing alright. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-03 09:19:30 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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sigh [SocialRecluse]
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2001-10-02 19:51:18 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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Oh and "dream boat ideals", WHAT THE FCUK?!?There are no "dream boat ideals" as far as Im concerned [Toxic girl]
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2001-10-02 16:17:09 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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Oh my god,Anonymous guy !Did u even read the message I left you in entry 29??My "sluggish behaviour">>>if your refering to the fact I went to bed as soon as I came home today, then thats becuse I felt like I was gonna pass .Read the message! [Toxic girl]
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2001-10-02 15:47:02 |
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..sleep, bad dream..but no food =D
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I was anorexic for a year... I was hungry, depressed, and hated myself regardless. I know it seems like the easiest solution... but it's not. I have since begun weight watchers, and am doing yoga everyday, and going to aerobics 3 times a week. I feel good, (even though I still have at least 25 pounds to lose) I feel like I am doing something for myself... ~Smiles~ [Simply_Forgotten]
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2001-10-02 14:07:39 |
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....nice lil hangover..but a sucky day
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I've not checked your age, but you are very intelligent none the less. I know what you mean about the dissaproving stares from strangers. I like to consider myself alternative to conformity lifestyles, not only in mind but also looks. I admire the way you interpret lifestyles and opinions to radio waves....there arent many who can tune into my station either :) which is a blessing!! have a great day :) [velmwend]
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2001-10-02 08:20:18 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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you have commented on my diaryt and i finally got round to reading yours. you started out as being satisfied with bulimia now you are reaching out for our friend ana. you seem to be ready for this and your right it isnt easy. i havent eaten eoither today i didnt eat yesterDAY although i ate a little with the family at night. i will have nothing but Coffee today. and thats a promise i made to ana. i envy your thiness already im 5'4 and 49kgs even thoyugh my numbers are lower if ytou take into consideration Hieght/weight ratio you win! [ANGEL812]
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2001-10-02 00:44:41 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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Oh and I dont give a crap about your ass [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-30 10:44:54 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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^BAH!Anonymous comments are sooo cowadice and they SUCK!Also ,this guy doesnt really know what hes saying...of coure I know its not healthy!Do you think Im doing it because I actually WANT to be "apreciated" by people like you??Look ,really ,thanks for the comment and all,feedback is always good..but DAMMIT, why cant we just accept how other people live their lives and the choices they make as long as they dont hurt anyone else......this is my choice, I am NOT irresponsable, I know the consequences.k? [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-30 10:24:31 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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Don’t want to judge you, may be I understand your last entry not that good and am I overreacting or may be you really have your reasons, but don’t try to make a battle for yourself trying too get as skinniest as you can. It isn’t healthy to get too skinny, and things won’t change for you because you’re only skinny, please be careful with your eating pattern before it will get out of hand. By the way, answering your question, yes, Robert Smith is a cool person, but for me, Simon Galop from the Cure is the coolest bass player in the world, he is so cute. [Charlotte Sometimes]
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2001-09-30 07:58:16 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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Mc donalds are disgusting, I had a friend that worked in one and oh my what he told me made me never want to eat there. Ewwwwwwwwwwwwww. It would honestly be better for you to starve your self than throw up. Normally I would not say that but your determined to get thin and I doubt much will change that. So try to not throw up results in a lot of long term probs. Sorry not trying to preach or nothing just worried about you. Have you set your self a goal of how thin you want to be? Or are you going to keep going until you feel comfortable with your self? Just wondering. Cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-29 19:45:07 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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^oooo *cringe* I just looked back at this entry and realised how badly written it is and soooo full of shit!Sorry to anyone who read it. [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-29 18:39:22 |
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I am the caffeine Queeeeeeeeeeeeen
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Hi. Thanks for commenting on my diary. I would love to go on a big conquest and kiss every beautiful girl I see. I'm just really shy. Well, talk to you later. [BiGirl]
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2001-09-29 18:27:12 |
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An ode to Ana; the one concious being
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wow.. that was cute, yet mean but meanly cute! i liked that it could be a good song i think! i know that sounds crazy btu i think it could. your poetry is amazing. it makes mine look soo immature! thanks for commenting you are awesome ~Ei [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-09-29 12:03:35 |
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An ode to Ana; the one concious being
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Wow, that was really good. Did u write that?? Oh yeah.. and thanks 4 da tip :P [sleepy_girl04]
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2001-09-28 17:07:02 |
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An ode to Ana; the one concious being
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I love the Cure [Charlotte Sometimes]
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2001-09-28 16:54:36 |
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An ode to Ana; the one concious being
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Hmm at the moment i've only got my industrial, i had earrings in my lobes and they got infected, so i took them out, then i had a helix but that got infected lol..and i had to take that out too = I could never pierce myself like you have..im too chicken haha. [bOnz]
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2001-09-28 12:02:12 |
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An ode to Ana; the one concious being
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hahha thats funny and cute and mean and everything....lol [tOo cOnfUseD]
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2001-09-28 09:39:26 |
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no meaning...
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Sorry toxic my friend your not right this time. You may have misread a sentence. Yeah I know I have a weird style of writing lol. But the rest of your comment was wonderful to read and I thank you for that.Made me smile that you have so much confidence in me. Lmao. Cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-27 15:25:07 |
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no meaning...
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did you write that? it was really good! i can relate to it.. it was really good you should post poems more often !=) thanks for commentin in my diary again u are the only person that does , you give me great advice and feedback, and i really appreciate it! thanks toodles! Ei [UNIQUELYAWEsome]
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2001-09-26 21:29:22 |
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no meaning...
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Oh god you talking about a naked obese woman reminds me of back in college when I had to draw something similar. For an entire lesson which is about half the day. I was glad to be back in the developing room the lesson after. I am happy that you ran into an old friend maybe it will lead to some kind of positive change. Cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-26 20:11:22 |
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no meaning...
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was that yours? feckin great poem if it is! :) I could relate to it....except the coffee bit and no food....would put me in a stinkin mood!! :) enjoy!! [velmwend]
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2001-09-26 18:09:36 |
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MAH b**** CAME BACK[?]
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maybe shes a lesbian? just kiddin..or...well - maybe? black spiky bag..my friend has one just the same..looks like some kinda alien or a strange sea creature...she also uses it for pleasure!! lol - sorry - hope you have a great day! :) I havent seen placebo in concert, any good! hey - have you been to rockworld in manchester?? youd love it!! :) [velmwend]
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2001-09-26 06:42:21 |
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art things +insecurities
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4 cups of coffee..? nothing to eat..? thats not gonna do your complexion any good young lady!! :) I'm right with ya on the self-concious thing. I never judge anyone by their looks, but I'm constantly worried about mine!! smashing pumpkins - i suppose my fave has to be siamese dream!! Takes me back to 1993 - the blazing epitamy of my youth as a raging grunger!! have a great day :) [velmwend]
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2001-09-25 04:17:49 |
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art things +insecurities
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I have no clue about Nancy boys and make up. But my view on make up is that its another pressure that really has little purpose. Its just more appearance based crap and to be honest I think women look a lot better with out it. Its cool your going somewhere, you don’t want to become really badly antisocial could get worse to the point of well me. Ha! Wouldn’t wish that on any one. As I have said to you before appearance is not every thing its what is on the inside that counts. Yeah I know very cliché but I think its true. I think you need to remember that your still a worthwhile person what ever weight or look you are. I hope you one day soon find the freedom to think fuck you and what you think of my looks. Then I belive you will be happy. Cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-24 21:01:55 |
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art things +insecurities
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hey, Hey girl no one is ever better than you! i feel the same about myself. i pick at every single little thing. i need to work on it and so do you. i wanna say congrats on only havin coffee but i wont i'll tell you to " eat more" lol. Wish i could only have cofee. Well lots of love and i'm sure you'll have fun tonite. Dont forget to write and say if you did or not lol. lots of love becca [Becca555]
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2001-09-24 18:18:55 |
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dedicated to nancyboys everywhere
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Of course I've heard of lenore. I love anything on slave labor comics.. I like "super pickle" It looks so cool, I havn'e read it yet though, But I will.... Do you collect comics? I love them. comment back. [The Ketchup Mess]
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2001-09-23 20:53:08 |
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dedicated to nancyboys everywhere
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Hey girl. We very in this. i love the classic bad boy. Nancy boys scare me. lol. I guess i'm just that ignorent society but oh well lol. Hope your doin okay w/ your food. love always becca [Becca555]
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2001-09-23 15:35:43 |
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dedicated to nancyboys everywhere
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Glad someone has got it right in the taste dept. I wear a little liner - but my eyelashes are so dark and long that it even looks like i've got it on when i havent :) have fun!! [velmwend]
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2001-09-23 15:34:34 |
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dedicated to nancyboys everywhere
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I agree about the make up thing... you are right...:) [schmetterling]
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2001-09-23 11:49:09 |
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Bipolar disorder,anyone??
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Hehe how did u get 13 of his hairs? He is lovely. Which of their songs do you like best? [ANGEL JONES]
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2001-09-23 07:42:59 |
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Bipolar disorder,anyone??
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<-----Placebo!!Yay!!Brian Molko is quite the most delectible nancyboy Ive ever seen....I just wanna BE him!!Well Ive got 13 of his hairs so perhaps I could clone him...[mmmmmm...13 Brian Molkos.hehe!] [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-23 05:14:59 |
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Bipolar disorder,anyone??
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Hi does not sound like things are going too great for you at the moment. You said that you feel guilty as no significant thing has happened. Well you don’t need to have anything significant and in my honest opinion the world just normally is a very stressful place enough to make any one depressed. You need to find your self worth again in some way. I don’t know how I am still looking myself but once you find something that brings you up like that it can help. I don’t think parents realize how damaging some of the stuff they say is. If your different in any way its always made a big deal about. There is no normal there just is what you are. If you want to be thin and go through all this effort is it to make you feel better about your self? Because like what you have to remember is that you are a worthwhile person I read your diary and I can see that in you. The worlds such an appearance based heap of kak. But to some people like me personality counts a lot more than the body does. That may just piss you off me saying that but I am trying to help. Cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-22 20:41:25 |
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Bipolar disorder,anyone??
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How much do you weigh in real life? I'm w/ you girl. i want to lose weight too. I think next week i'm gonna try and go on a fast. Not eat anything. Maybe you can help me. Lots of love~becca [Becca555]
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2001-09-22 13:49:37 |
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A day
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it was Squee by Jhonen Vasquez [The Ketchup Mess]
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2001-09-22 11:42:31 |
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A day
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i hope everythin gets better for you... dont ever doubt yourself.. i used to do that.. to myself.. i knwo tellin someone is dumb b.c they dont listen anyways but dont doubt oyurself.. because u seem like a real sweetheart! nd you COMMENTED my diary! =) that is soo nice! and you actualyl seemed to care about what i wrote about! so thank you ... and i hope your weekend is good! [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-09-21 23:20:11 |
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A day
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have any other diarists noticed that when they update their diary,large chunks that they`ve written go missing??? [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-21 15:30:33 |
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A day
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you'll feel better later :) I know excactly what you mean about the effects of drink if youre feeling down.it does exagerrate it, vice versa! Hope the weekend goes well for you...:)) [velmwend]
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2001-09-21 11:46:19 |
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Hello kitty cat
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Hey, I wanted to see the hobbit!I heard it wasnt very good tho, so I didnt bother.I aslo wanted to see the rocky horror picture show....I seriously regret missing THAT one! And no-way is Liverpool better than Manchester!! Not that Ive ever been to Manchester..but nowhere could be worse than Liverpool; the skankiest,scabiest place in the world!!! [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-21 09:15:30 |
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Hello kitty cat
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yeah - I'm only 30 minutes away!! The last time I went to l/pool was to watch the hobbit at the empire theatre...hey....it's better than manchester!! :)) [velmwend]
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2001-09-20 16:16:45 |
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Hello kitty cat
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Hehe!Im from liverpool, unfortunatly!Its quite a shit-hole, ever been there? [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-20 15:37:42 |
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Hello kitty cat
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youre 9 stone and you think youre fat!!! c'mon!! :) btw, are you from the UK...I'm from cheshire, you? oops..no I havent kissed stephan from placebo, but I have met bob holness - does that count? have fun :) [velmwend]
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2001-09-20 15:11:08 |
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GoodStuffBadStuffSadStuff
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*velmwend, i mean !sorry .lol [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-20 11:34:04 |
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GoodStuffBadStuffSadStuff
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velment>>>u mean u`ve kissed stephan from placebo too?and you also own 13 of brian molkos hair??lol [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-20 11:31:57 |
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GoodStuffBadStuffSadStuff
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I hope your doing alright toxic? [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-20 03:57:45 |
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GoodStuffBadStuffSadStuff
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I can relate to all those....except the fat days!! :)) [velmwend]
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2001-09-19 15:19:02 |
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Arn`t Milkyway magic stars FABULOUS?
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mmmm...choc-O-late!! :) [velmwend]
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2001-09-18 09:57:52 |
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Skinny is sexy ,big isn`t beautifullllllll..
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Thankies [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-17 13:17:33 |
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Skinny is sexy ,big isn`t beautifullllllll..
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Isn’t it wonderful? When the world just kind of slides together, briefly, to a whole, beautiful thing? Momentary beauty and calm, when passion and perfection once again seem in reach. How can one not believe in fate, or God, with these moments of clarity? I live for those moments, and it joys me to see it achievable in others. Cheers. [The Vigilante]
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2001-09-16 23:31:17 |
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Skinny is sexy ,big isn`t beautifullllllll..
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Oh toxic I really do understand what you’re saying and I don’t have any decent advice for you. All I can say is things change unfortunately you just have to give it time. Nothing makes sense to me either but what’s more important is your self you may not think so but its true. You from what I have read of your diary seem to have a very wonderful personality and a brain. Before any one can love you, you have to learn to love your self. I know it’s a hard thing to do I am still trying and not getting very far. But it is possible. I wish I could wave a magic wand and take away all that is wrong in the world but that’s not possible. All your left with is making the best out of whatever situation you are in. Now I am sure you want to beat me to death with a high heel shoe right now for saying all that but I hope once you have calmed down you will realize I am just trying to help in my own flawed way. ;) [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-16 22:48:23 |
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Skinny is sexy ,big isn`t beautifullllllll..
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I dont even care anymore about getting hurt/down, coz ive exepted that as being normal. I dont wanna sound like some bleeding heart or anything but I cant even feel hurt or down anymore, because Im so accostumed to it...nothing seems to make any sence or have any value any more but I no longer care...all I want to do now is feel somthing in myself that I can regognise and love. [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-16 17:27:37 |
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Skinny is sexy ,big isn`t beautifullllllll..
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I am not going to nag you as such but I am going to just say this. Feeling that way will have a cost which will turn out not to be worth it in the end. It sounds like a form high to me and all highs have their downers Because I know that you already deep down inside know that this is going to do more damage than good.. So just be careful all right. Keep writing and thanks for your comment. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-16 12:20:47 |
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Skinny is sexy ,big isn`t beautifullllllll..
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really really dumb,eh?BAH! [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-16 11:36:35 |
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BAH!!
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whoa thats a crazy diary entry uve got there...hehe [tOo cOnfUseD]
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2001-09-16 01:11:47 |
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*YAWN*
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lolol! Oh,and sorry for generalizing.I know not everyone who likes Papa roach is a pretentious"Bob". [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-13 12:35:46 |
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*YAWN*
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i definitely share your sentiments. I have a friend who is rather harsh on herself whenever she gets really depressed. I am sometimes like that too..although, i'm too creative to be a slash bearing chick...but you are right when you say that it isn't normal..yes they are sick. I think it helps more when they have friends who understand them and actually help them get through an ordeal without having to harm themselves. As for those who just harm themselves to be ..i don't know..famous?or something.I think they just want to let the world notice them and tell others that they are tough and well, insane once in a while. Maybe it is also a way of covering their insecurities and their fear that they might be looked down upon when they don't have anything dark to reveal about themselves...WHO KNOWS WHAT IS ON THE YOUTH's MINDS TODAY??? (lots of PORN and FUN-NATURE TRIPPING and SERIOUSLY...PEACE!) :) The world is not a total glum with people like you who are concerned. :) keep the spirit alive...or else, pass it on to the next jedi..heheheh [DerangedFemale]
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2001-09-12 23:56:56 |
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EEEK!They`re everywhere!
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okay, i don't know whether i'd be flattered or insulted by you thinking that i am that psychiatrist guy...i mean, i could be flattered that you think i make that much sense...then again, it isn't a thrill to be mistaken as a guy..i mean, my anonymous name says i'm a female..broad as daylight!!! still, y would you believe an alias right? Uh-huh! you'd better get your facts straight girlfriend...! Still, it's kindda freaky that i might actually sound like i'm a psychiatrist...i did want to be one..unfortunately, i'd rather have fun poking around people's lives on my own..(if u know what i mean..snicker!) FOR THE FIRST AND FINAL TIME>>>I AM NEITHER A PSYCHIATRIST NOR A GUY>>>I AM JUST SOME MISANTHROPIC BITCH WITH QUITE AN OUTLOOK IN LIFE~~:) if this would help, my name is Margaret. :) PEACE! AND YES< KIDS< don't be like BOB...heheheheh [DerangedFemale]
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2001-09-12 23:50:05 |
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*YAWN*
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thanks for commentin in my diary.. i agree.. my friend used to cut herself and brag abotu it liek it made her look so good.. but i encouraged her to get professional help.. that stuff its just scaryyy and sad=( [uniquelyawesome]
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2001-09-12 22:03:44 |
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*YAWN*
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I completely agree with that. I do like papa roach and I did used to cut my self up pretty bad but that was to reduce the pain. (Yeah ironic I know.) But I was not a Goth and no way thought it was cool. So when I hear about very stupid people doing that kind of thing it pisses me off as well. Especially because if you talk to most people that self harm they hate the fact they are doing it and wish they could stop. But as recent events show the world is totally fucked up. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-12 19:35:20 |
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EEEK!They`re everywhere!
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Oh,and that should be cliche with an accent ,but my keyboards a shit one that can`t do accents,you see.Pooey keyboard! [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-12 17:59:05 |
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"I`m falling in love withDavid Bowieeeeeeeeeeeeee"
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AAAW,thanks sweetie :] [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-11 12:37:43 |
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"I`m falling in love withDavid Bowieeeeeeeeeeeeee"
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That must suck your friend canceling especially if you were looking forward to it. I am sure you will manage to get out at some point. What you doing a comic about? I thought the saying was set your self achieveable goals. Mine might be getting out of bed but that’s a bit high up on being able to do. Lol hope things pick up for you soon. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-10 23:03:00 |
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"I`m falling in love withDavid Bowieeeeeeeeeeeeee"
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Well,actually I`m in love with ziggy stardust. [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-09 10:27:54 |
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"I`m falling in love withDavid Bowieeeeeeeeeeeeee"
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Hey I'm in love with David Bowie so don't knock it! [Everything]
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2001-09-09 10:23:40 |
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..uuuuuhhh
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love the cure song..but i hate spiders :) Hope you managed to get out tonight!! thanks for yuor comments :) have fun!! [velmwend]
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2001-09-09 05:13:00 |
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..Its like waking up
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EKK!I just realised i quoted that song wrong.BAH! [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-07 14:41:20 |
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..Its like waking up
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i learned not to feel that way when i realised that everyone else did too and were concerned with only themselves, like I was! It was then that i was able to stand back, accept that i had nothing to be self conscious about and then had a laugh watching everybody else being narky with themselves...have fun :) [velmwend]
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2001-09-06 15:24:12 |
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..Its like waking up
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Mmm, philisophical girls turn me on [The Vigilante]
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2001-09-06 15:24:09 |
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Ugly,paranoid,insecure
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have u ever thought how much that person would be missing if that person chose not to appreciate you coz you don't look that good? That Stupid person would not get a chance to get to know a deep, sensual, exciting person...such as you guys. As far as I'm concerned, it's not the looks..it should be the confidence and belief in oneself..i mean, i'm not that eye catching ...but I believe that i'm soooooo great! If only looks would matter, then i guess everyone is doomed..:) Like I've said, you are beautiful not by other's standards...but because you are....by someone's standards..your standards...If it is not good enough for you..then i guess you'll have a very big prob...:) [DerangedFemale]
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2001-09-05 23:17:30 |
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!"S?!o*mthing!?".)}]..it depends how u look at it.
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It's really tempting when we get off easy inlife. I mean, it's like why look hard for something to make you feel better when you could just go to some friend and hear her gush about how gorgeous you are..but the mere fact that you are looking for that..your fishing for flattery says a lot...you are not secure with yourself...then i guess how can you be happy? right? I mean, don't get me wrong..I love compliments..I just don't give it much of a big deal until i proved to myself that I really am that great person. :) [DerangedFemale]
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2001-09-05 23:11:08 |
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!"S?!o*mthing!?".)}]..it depends how u look at it.
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Thank you.I will be careful..if i ever find the happy point again that is. [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-05 17:23:37 |
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!"S?!o*mthing!?".)}]..it depends how u look at it.
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I was at that happy point when I turned 13. And then I got pregnant with my baby. He's 4 now, and I'm 18, with two other children. Be careful with that happy point. [mybabiesandme18]
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2001-09-05 16:32:37 |
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Ugly,paranoid,insecure
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Sorry to hear you had such a bad day. I am surprised she did not say something like I am washing my hair. I will have to remember the saying new breed. I am deemed weird because I don’t follow the norm but I don’t want to I want to be my self as much as I can. (With out being sent to the loony bin lol) Sounds like this bob is scared that she won’t fit in. Bob, god I have to wonder how your mind works. I know what you mean about the mirror stuff I hate them too; if I look in one I think well I won’t get far in this appearance based world. So its best not to look in them. Any way cya [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-04 17:49:22 |
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ITS BLACK/BLUE DAYYYYYYYYYY
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Has no choice but to smirk at you having black/blue hair. Well you did it in the end and got what you wanted. So that’s cool. Join the club in the doing nothing department god it sucks. Oh yes and I want those three things just as bad as you. Maybe tomorrow will reveal something good that will cheer you up. Things do change. Take your hair for instance. Don’t know what else to say that will cheer you up a bit sorry. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-03 14:13:19 |
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sometimes ya just gotta do what YOU want
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Hey tnx for that little note u posted on my diary. It meant a lot. :) Anyway, surprise surprise, I've been in your dillema quite a few years back. I was in high school and i wanted to dye my hair green (yep! of all the color!!! But, my hair now is red, my fave color) Anyway, i didn't exactly tell them about it and you could just imagine the joy i had upon seeing their faces. :) YUP! It's like FIRST PLACE IN GAPING-JAW-DROPPING-CONTEST!! Eventually, they couldn't do anything about it..hehehheh so, that's it. Of course it would be different for you since, i don't know, we have different parents....but, i think u should try considering asking ur parents permission...i mean, wat the heck!! If u really want to do it, and they won't ..you'd probably go do it anyway coz part of ur reason is to spite them...hehehehheheh or..maybe, (im saying JUST MAYBE) your mom would say.."That's ur decision dear, go do what u like...on second thought, why don't i go with you and check if they have something that will match my purple dress... :) Have fun!!! [DerangedFemale]
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2001-09-02 18:53:47 |
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sometimes ya just gotta do what YOU want
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Ok what would I say in your situation. Well first off if it were my own parents I would just be straight and frank because I am sure they would not give a shit any way. But that don’t apply to you. How about you explain that changing your hair color is something you want to do. As an expression of your self. That because my hair color will change it does not mean I am going to join a rock band and inject heroin or suddenly gain a bad attitude. Tell them you have been putting this off for a long time because you did not want to upset any one but now you really want to do it. That’s all I can come up with I hope what you say at the time hits home and you get what you want. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-02 05:33:34 |
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2 entries in 1 day ...a sign of EXTREME boredom
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Oh,but glittery nail polish is the ONLY medium to paint someone so beautiful !! [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-02 03:31:32 |
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2 entries in 1 day ...a sign of EXTREME boredom
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I am bored as well, Sigh. Maybe you should try using paint next time instead of nail polish, Just a thought =) You have to keep hassling them if you want a job. You tried going to all the different job agencies? Good luck any way. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-01 14:45:04 |
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I dont think i need counselling ,since my bulimia is my own way of dealing with my problems.Of course,lots of people would say: "no!your just adding another problem to your list!" and i can understand how they`d reach that conclusion.But its so wierd,its like when i throw everything up(and i dont have to stick my fingers down my throat,i just seem to have this ability to do it when i want to)it just seems to compensate for all the shitness i feel,and i feel so much better....its so strange.Does anyone else experience anything similar? [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-01 06:00:13 |
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another day of thought....
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Yes maybe thats true about the weather,since the sun does worsen my mood !ahhh,its nice and cloudy today : ] [Toxic girl]
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2001-09-01 05:49:49 |
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another day of thought....
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Actually there is a form of depression called SAD don’t remember what it stands for but it makes people depressed or makes their original depression worse depending on the weather. No kidding look it up if you want. How can your dad say those things that’s just really horrible, you have got to try not to be an emotional slave to him, find you own free will if you know what I mean. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-09-01 05:37:32 |
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ashophagus.... sounds like the other end....lol :) actually it's esophagus..... please take care though, when you are ready you could go to councelling? Health is everything, please take care, girl. ...Batlle on! [The Stray]
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2001-09-01 05:17:01 |
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Maybe you should do what you want to do. Sounds like you are being controlled too much but every action has a consequence. It may sound weird to a lot of people what you described about making yourself throw up but I understand that feeling in other ways. I hope you come to a decision soon. I wont say cheer up or you will want to strangle me so instead keep fighting on who knows maybe time will change things for the better. [SocialRecluse]
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2001-08-31 16:54:54 |
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